Saturday, May 29, 2010

Psychoanalyze this Bitch.

It's been forever since i've posted, but thats just too damn bad because no one reads this anyway ;p


Well it is summer, and a lot of stuff has happened and I'll write that all in something later, right now I just woke up after a few hours of sleep to having had the worst nightmare in a while, and I want to write it down before I forget. I figured I could write down how twisted I am somewhere......


So my friends and I (IRL) are going on a road trip to Florida, since this is most everyones first trip way far away without adults/family/whatever we're all super excited, but we were kidding around about horror movies and not taking backwoods roads/staying together and all that junk. This was a few days ago so no idea why I was dreaming about it last night......

--keep in mind this is a dream, so stuff changes really quickly, and I'm writing down the whole dream not just the weird parts--

First I was at an old camp I used to go to.... only problem was I wasn't wearing any pants. And to top it off, I wasn't wearing any pants outside. Soooo, I had to go to the camp store while trying to pull my shirt low enough so no one saw anything. I don't know where it was but I had my credit card on me so I was good on the money front. I guess in my dreaming head, a friend lived in the store so I just borrowed some pants anyway. Soon it was time to pack up and leave and I was on a plane to Florida (I know we're going on a road trip. Don't kill me it's a dream) Matt and Alyssa were on this flight too. (we couldn't all get on the same flight.) Apparently this plane kind of drops you off where you need to go, and in our case we had to jump from a plane onto the whatever high floor we were staying in. I missed the jump and ended up climbing down a tree by the pool. I set up a fruit salad.... don't ask me why, and wait for Matt and Alyssa to come down to see if I'm okay. I pull out my lap top while I'm waiting and check facebook, because thats what you do when you've missed the jump from a plane, climbed down a tree, and made multiple fruit salads..... yes, now it's multiple. Alyssa, instead of climbing down to see if I'm okay wrote on my dad's FB wall saying "sooo there's something you should know" and my dad wrote back "IS EVERYTHING OKAY HOW IS MY BABY!?!?" and Alyssa's response was "Fine she just missed the jump and landed in a tree" to which my dad replied "Oh, okay, tree's are fine."

I see other people I know walking in the lobby, so I decided to go in and even though I have an abundance of fruit outside waiting for them to come down and enjoy, waiting for Matt and Alyssa to show up would be fruitless.... (Hahahaha I'm so freaking hilarious)

Anyway I find myself with a huge array of different people I'm acquaintances with, and we're just walking the halls of the hotel. This hotel is made kind of like the ICU of a hospital though, and there are huge windows for you to see in the rooms. For some reason no one has shades or curtains and you can see right in. For a while we're just having fun making fun of people and soon we get to this small room where a man is sleeping with a mask on. The door is locked and we don't try to get in. At first it seemed kind of funny, then we realized the mask was skin.... and fresh skin, like still bleeding. He also has made kind of a stained glass window on a window across the room of laminated skins. He's got random nicknacks from every decade all over his room, but especially on his upright piano. This man gives me the creeps, so I'm out of there. Soon I hear someone playing piano and voices getting louder and louder. I think maybe the guys a performer or something, I don't know, so I make my way back over there and the man is gone. I have no idea where he has gone to because I wasn't around when he left. Kevin V. was playing the piano, and everyone was laughing. I begged him to stop for a really long time because the man was going to hear him and come back soon. No one would listen so I just left. When I was a few hallways down I passed the man in the mask and he had heard the music. Without a second look at me he was running down the hall to get back to his sanctuary my friends had so thoughtlessly disrupted. I stood there in the hall terrified waiting for a scream from Kevin or one of the others but it never came. Soon people were running through the halls, everywhere. The hotel became a maze and we didn't know where we could go. It became clear that this man was a monster, and wanted a chase. It occurred to me that we were very high up in a hotel and we could just go down to the lobby and leave through the front doors. I grab a few people ( It is unclear to me who exactly I grabbed) and tell them my plan. It's just too hard for us all to get out alive. And I realized I made a decision a long time ago to save my own skin from being a part of his collage, when I walked away from the sleeping monster in his cage. I should have stayed away when Kevin started playing piano. I should have tried to take on the man myself right there in the hall, sacrificed myself to save them all, or hall ass out of there and never look back. I went back then and now it was my chance to hall ass and survive.

The few of us find a staircase, and start climbing down. Soon we find that we can fit in the cracks and we start going down faster. But, this must be a maintenance stairway because it didn't lead to the Lobby, it went straight to the basement. In here there were massacred body's everywhere, some covered in tarps and some just laying around. For some reason we all start to form a line holding arms, and I see body's getting up and leaving from under the tarps and scurrying back upstairs. PEOPLE HAD SURVIVED!!!! I start to think, and I could totally just get back under the tarps and lie with all of the dead people... he would never know the difference. So I break myself away from the group and I put my hands on a ledge to lift myself up to where the people just left and I hear a *click* and a small light flash. He's got motion detecting camera's and he knows who was trying to take their place... what will he do to me? Were they on his side, were they a trap? Would he kill me first now? Why the hell did the whole group follow me to the basement and join arms like we were in a prayer circle. We can't fucking sing kumbaya, at a time like this. He herded us like cattle, and he was going to kill us, using our skins to finish his collage that looked like a stained glass window. There was no way out. He had motion detectors that took pictures for Christ's sake. HE KNOWS WHO WE ARE AND HE WILL GET US.
Then I woke up.

**TADA!**

So that's it, hope you enjoyed my dream ;]

***thank you Warren for putting the idea of motion detecting camera's too ;p

Monday, April 26, 2010

Maybe someday I will see you again, and you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend...


Sooooo, things have been really freaking hectic lately. There is more drama than I want to be in my life, in my life right now, and it kinda sucks.
This past weekend however, was prom, and that my friends did not suck. I had a great time, and am really happy I went. Thank you, Warren;]
Miss Kelly-Kel-Kellll won Prom Queen, and her acceptance speech was the bomb (like, tick tick). Love that girl.
I'm super disappointed in my parents though, their opinion of Avatar
"it was pretty good"- I cried.
My day was made at like 1 in the morning today so thats always cool;]
Sorry this is weird and rambly, I need a napppp ;p
Nighty Night ;]

Monday, April 12, 2010

Happy Talk, Keep Talkin', Happy Talk


I'm going to attempt to go to bed early tonight in the hopes that I will be able to cram for my Psych Exam tomorrow... hopefully that will work. I passed my bio exam alright, not amazing but okay. Today I've been more distracted by peoples views of themselves.
I've gone through some pretty crappy stuff in my life, and I went through a period that was kind of dark. One day though I realized that I was harming myself and I couldn't keep living my life like that. I wanted to be happy, and
I was (still am) worth being happy. I don't need people in my life that bring me down. I guess that's probably why my group of friends use
d to change so much, if you don't treat me how I know I deserve to be treated I'm not going to put up with it. Some people think I'm a bitch because of it, but I have never been horrible to anyone. I try not to say things behind people's backs that I wouldn't say to their faces. I think more people should adopt that belief.
I would like to let anyone (the two people who follow me ;]) who will read this now or in the future, that YOU yes YOU are worth being happy. I don't know why you don't see what I see in you.
Sure, this is kind of aimed at someone in particular, but they'll never read it. Since they won't its for you.
You are loved, people do care about you, and you deserve the best.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Oh, Darling


This weekend was a ton of fun;] We had a spring festival on the quad themed for Woodstock, and it was a blast;] I was super excited that I was able to get some really good footage and some interesting pictures, so look for that in a vlog;]

http://www.youtube.com/juliarese

whoah, plug in;]

I finally paid for my transcripts from the college courses I took in high school to be transfered over to my university, that took me long enough;p
Annnnd, today when I was supposed to be studying what did I do? I downloaded music, watched a movie, and ta
lked with Nick. Well that was the epitome of procrastination, and very enjoyable. Blahhh, two exams this week in classes that I despise, and signing up for fall semeste
r. I always get the last dates to sign up, efffff ;[
However, going to see KickAss with Nick this weekend at his friend Alex's birthday party should brighten my week. Thennnn prom with Sir. Warren the next weekend, which I am actually looking forward to, lol. Almost done with the freshman year of college, and ending with some great stories and amazing friends.
I will leave you with a picture from the middle of last semester that will probably make no sense to yo
u but I love it anyway, and the lyrics to my current favorite song that I found today;]
Oh Darling by Plug In Stereo

You seem quite nice for a girl with good looks
And I’m the kinda fellow that’ll make you feel better when your life gets shook
So give it a chance according to your plans
I bet I'm not number one on your list to kiss, but please understand

You seem quite shy, but you’re oh so cute
And I’m the kind of girl that would love to be yours if you asked me to
So just take a chance, try to hold my hand
I swear I’d never let go
Just let me know if you’d be my man

I really want to come out and tell you
Oh darling, I love you so
If you’d ask me for my heart, there’s no way that I’ll say no
Oh darling, just take a chance please
So we can stay together till hell starts freeze

You seem quite right for a boy like me
And I wanna know would you treat me well
Would you treat me like a queen
Cause I’d like to show you and make you see
That although we’re different type
We were meant to be

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

What a Sweet Transvestite

It's only Tuesday and I've already had one exam, one essay due, and one more exam in the morning. Tomorrow night my bestest friend Amanda is visiting and this weekend I might have more people visiting. You'd think I would have used my weekend for more practical things, like studying or writing... even doing laundry would have been more productive that what I did. Should I regret it? Maybe if my test scores are poor, however I won't regret it. This weekend was hilarious.
On friday I caught the 6 o'clock train home, and was home around 8. I maybe not so quickly dressed and got ready for Warren's birthday party. It was a stereotype party, and even though I was late it was a whole lot of fun. In the morning we were all dead, but thats okay;] Then Saturday we partook in my FAVORITE activity EVER!

THE ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW!

Yeah, you may think I'm being over dramatic about this, but I am not. If there was one way I could spend every saturday for the rest of my life this would be it.

So after a shitty Sunday Easter and my mother telling me it was time I started using my brain, I don't know how I got into college without using it, but you're welcome to ask her... But anywhoooo, I have been a little obsessive with Richard O'Brien for the past few days.... Is that weird? I don't care, he sexy ;]

Monday, March 29, 2010

Sunday, March 28, 2010

The Life of a Queen... Drag Queen

I was extremely excited this weekend when one of my best friends was able to come visit. The first time she was going to visit was over Halloween weekend... yeah that long ago. Anyway, she had just mentioned in passing that she had nothing to do this weekend, and as a joke I told her there was a drag show I was planning on going to. I wouldn't have gone to the show unless I had someone to go with... Its just not something I'd want to attend all by my lonesome. However, it was amazing! I cannot wait for next years PRIDE events. Although I'm not gay, but I am an ally. I was excited to know some of the student performers, and disappointed that Sharon ShareAlike had better boobs than I do. Yeah, a queen has nicer fakes. whoopie.
Although, if you are into drag I suggest getting your boobs from
http://boobsforqueens.com
seriously.

Well, now that it's almost midnight, I should prepare for my 8am presentation tomorrow;]